Have you ever found yourself daydreaming all day? Have you ever wished you could shut out the noise around you and just sit still for a moment? Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Oops, wait, I think I was still in Brandy mode in that last one. Of course she and I do share similar qualities. We both sit up in our rooms (well, technically it's more sitting down than anything), we both appreciate full moons, we both know what it's like to have an audience of less than 10, and we both have fought over Mekhi Phifer (because really, who wouldn't?). But I digress. It's been quite a while since I last wrote a post and I'd like to think that in a year a lot has changed about myself. I now have a bf, am happily domesticated, still dealing with my weight, and still miserable with work. So yeah just about the same. Glad to know that I like to balance the good with the bad. That isn't to say that it won't change. My 28th birthday is around the corner and I do have high hopes. I was able to overcome the "27 Club" that has taken so many lives. Although, part of that may be because I'm neither a musician or celebrity. The only clubs I partake in nowadays are sodas and music. I guess I can take solace in the fact that I'm not celebrity enough to be part of a "fit club" along the likes of Screech and everyone from the TGIF lineup of the 90s.
Now I do enjoy daydreaming. I mean, I know everyone says the life of a bookkeeper/accountant is filled with excitement and champagne and fabulous experiences. Oh wait that's right, no one has said that. It's your typical 9-5 job with a few perks here and there. But I've always thought I was destined for much more -- to do something more exciting. When I was a kid I used to watch a whole episode of Power Rangers and (no joke) would re-enact the entire episode out on my front lawn. Sure, I got some stares and SURE I got, well, a lot of stares but in that 22-min commercial free moment I got to have a sense of what it was like to be someone different, someone exciting, someone with a stereotypical costume color and a cool Transformers-like vehicle. Wait, does that mean I would have been a BROWN Ranger? Uhhhh I take that back. I think I'll leave those dreams to the professionals. Brown really isn't a flattering color choice unless you're playing in mud. So what do I dream about nowadays? I dream of a fabulous vacation with my boo, maybe a little more pocket change, and a job where people know how to properly leave me alone unless otherwise needed. The American Dream right?
One other thing I've changed in the past year is my eating habits. With the boyfriend's help I've become vegan/vegetarian/pescatarian/cheatarian. I think I still walk a fine line. Not that I necessarily eat meat regularly (at least not in the conventional sense) but I do enjoy my sushis and calamaris, and every extra from The Little Mermaid. It is funny how you can manipulate vegetarian food to still have a lot of flavor and taste just as good, if not better, than meat-centric dishes. But as I've learned, you can still find ways to cheat around that and eat junk even though it's technically vegetarian. I guess I'll have to do some more reading up on that. I can't help that I love food. I was originally going to title this blog "I Will Remember Food". One, because I will eventually have to give it up the old habits and take on new ones. And two, because I'll be feeling as sad and guilty from eating those foods as I do from watching a Sarah McLachlan ASPCA commercial.
I know I complain about life and work, but it's not all bad. I'm happy in my relationship and that's what keeps me going. Because I've learned a few life lessons from Brandy. Firstly, I don't wanna be down... not no 'mo at least. Secondly, I also would like to mildly resurrect my persona as a rap artist. Thirdly, we're all human. Not sure what I mean by that exactly but I felt this needed a third reason. So I'll keep on dreaming and hopefully turn that into a reality because as Brandy would say, never say never... unless it involves drinking because let's be honest alcohol is my best friend. For now I think I'll also resurrect this blog (though sadly not under the guise of my rap persona). I think I'll leave the rap personas to the real professionals too... like Miley Cyrus.
